I was trying to do some research online, and came across a news from Taiwan that one of the actress has just died from an car accidient.

She was only 28.

What stuck me, though, is how her fans and media react to this tragic accident. All over the place, media reported the gossip stories regarding her love life and her “inevitable” fate of death. The stories about how she had suffered through many broken relationships; how she, out of desparation, sought for love life and career guidence from a Taoist master; how the master had warned her about this coming “fate”…All those fotune telling stuff.

Looking at her photogragh on the news, I felt compassion for her: Such a pretty and young girl. I cannot imagine how her firends and family would feel like. Sight heavily in my heart, I cannot imageine how I would feel like… if I were her friend.

I cannot help myself to wonder how I would feel if my friends/fmailies have lost their lifes before they get a chance to meet the Lord.

The world(Taiwan) that I came from is a place full of idoltry, and my story is no differnt than hers. In my memory, there always has been a big hole in my heart. A hole of loniness, dark and deep, crying out for love. Struggling with the relationship with my parents and several broken relationships, I sought for every possible ways to fill that hole in my heart: Fortune telling, Taoist, Buddism, or even more boy friends… but nothing works.

Not until I was touched by His love, and started to work in my journey of healing.

And now as a Christain, I knew I ought to bring the souls that I love to Him, just as my friends brought me to Him. And yet facing all the challenges in day-to-day life, it’s so easy to get loose and lazy. Excuses such as “There is still time” “I would get a chance to pray for her/him later” “maybe next time” come up so effortlessly.

But life is so short and eternity is so long.

And for people who have acrossed the path of my life, I never know how long I can be with or of influnce to them. What if there is no “next time”? What if there is no tomorrow? What if I lost my chance to bring the light into their life? How would I cope with the lost for the eternity? How would I cope with the guilt and regret?